Life Lately- Letting Go

It isn't easy.  To let go of mistakes you have made, and relationships in your life that are not good for you.  This week is Spring Break for us, and it has had some unfortunate events, including a pre teen runaway that threatened to harm himself on our property and an invasion of my personal privacy.  The cops were out here alot needless to say this past weekend.  (Yes my kids and I are safe, it was not my child who attempted to run away.)

This week has been spent increasing security around here, pushing toxic people out of my life for good, and moving on.  Admitting to myself who I really am, the mistakes I have made, and learning from them with a renewed commitment to stop repeating them.

I have alot of work to do but I am on a whole new journey to a whole to me, and the people who opted out of my life will be so sorry they missed out on something so great.  Do you know that you are valuable?  Worthy of love, just the way you are?  Don't let anyone push you around, tell you anything other then you are beautiful, or important.

The walls around here are becoming bare as photos are coming down and furniture is being moved.  Soon yard clean up will commence to make room for something or someone new.  Next month, I am headed out to Orlando, and I cannot wait.  It will be a great escape!

I am ready for a new adventure.  I am ready for respiratory illnesses to be gone from this house, but my view was pretty great on the cold days while I was sick.  I slept in the living room with my daughter in front of the fire place.  I had a frenemy (lol) that was (kind/wicked) enough to stay a night or so to care for my kids because I was just really sick.  Unfortunately, the medications I take prevent me from taking any cold or flu medications to alleviate symptoms.

My ex and I are in negotiations to work together better for the sake of our children, and who knew I would care about the well being of a woman I once hated.  He is with the woman I talked about a couple years ago when I found out he was talking to someone else.  She was a problem throughout our almost 20 years together.

I guess this was just an update. Thanks for following along.  I don't know that I have done much lately to live frugally.  Except cut and color my own hair.  Spring break is low key, with some sleep overs, ice cream, and $1.00 frito burritos from Taco Bell.

How is everyone?  What are you up to..any lessons learned?

Life Lately

Wow I didn't realize that I have not blogged since before Christmas! My deepest apologies if there are any readers still out there!

Life has been crazy, starting over as been harder than I thought it would be, and so has moving on.  I have done many things I thought I never would though, I have spent time with my soon to be ex husband and the girlfriend along with our kids.  I have had two different roommates.  Finding the right one or deciding to move won't be easy. 

I have brain stormed a new blog hoping to be able to monetize it, but I have some studying to do. I would like to find a way to work from home.  This summer school being out will be a challenge, my ex's girlfriend has had cancer for a few years now, and she has admitted she isn't always up for the challenge of the kids.  My ex and I cannot afford day care.  My job is only part time.  I have asked him to review his finances and consider making child support payments and if I can get one of my ideas going I can work from home.  Make jewelry, sell stuff on Craigslist etc.  I am studying lots of other bloggers to see how they do it.  I am not going to give up! Something will work out.

Anyway life lately honestly has involved re arranging and purging and it's bad....see photos below...lol

So pretty much every room in the house has looked like this one.  This one is my daughters new room.  Lol I got work to do...pass me the paint and glue.....lol (does anyone know what movie that line is from?) 


My kids switched rooms, I got a new bed, wedding photos have been moved to kids rooms and closets and hung up for them to always have.  I am working to discover who I am now....I don't like working for someone else, though, I love the company I work for.  I am ordering new curtains and making the place something other than what my husband and I used to share.  Surprisingly that has been hard. I have struggled immensely with depression, anxiety, kids attitudes, and my ex's attitude when his girlfriend temporarily left him.

Anyhow, I hope to begin blogging again regularly soon. Thank you for hanging in there with me.  I hope to be able to give up my part time job by summer.  I will hopefully be posting how I reach those goals soon.