Wednesday, July 13, 2016

What I Find Myself Doing Tonight

Or should I say this early morning it is officially Thursday I guess since it is 12:05 am EST.

I got a message today (when I say message I mean literally through Facebook Messenger app) that my grandmother (my children's great grandmother) passed away a day or so ago from my estranged step sister.  Some of you know the story I don't speak to my biological father but I did have a relationship  as did my children with his mother and his brother.

I know she is free from her earthly burdens and she did believe in Jesus.  She accepted Him as her Saviour many many years ago.  A friend said she was a sweet soul that had been through alot in her lifetime.

My biological father does not acknowledge  me as part of the family and I am ok with that.  I am unable to travel right now anyway for the funeral.  I realized today it makes no difference if they recognize me as part of the family or not.  They will never be able to take away the memories she and I made together.

I find myself unable to sleep tonight.  I have prayed, tried watching movies to no avail.

I decided to put my no sleep time to use and tackled this....

My ever so lovely laundry room.  Our washer and dryer were outside under a carport at our old place. One of the nice things about this place is that the laundry can be done inside.  The appliances needed a good scrubbing.  That is just what they got.  I washed the baseboards, cabinets, and floor.  I may have mentioned it is a very small room but I got something done without waking the house up and it was nice to work without interruption.

Finished it is like this

And I know it may not look different in the photos and my husband will probably never notice.  We are supposed to do our work as unto the Lord anyway right?  Not for man's praises.

There is a chalkboard that hangs over the washer and dryer.  We do pass through this room each day to go out.  Any suggestions on some inspirational quotes I could put on it.  Some days depression is rough and holds on tight, but I won't quit.  Leave your quotes or suggestions in the to you all!


  1. I'm very sorry about your grandmother. I think you have adopted a very good attitude in that no one can take away your memories of her. One of the verses that I have hung on to for many years thru various trials in my life is Romans 12:12, "rejoicing in hope, patient in tribulation, continuing steadfast in prayer." I read a little devotional they used that verse a long time ago. I think it just helps me to remember that although there is tribulation and troubles in this life, there is always hope. With our faith there is always hope in the Lord if we talk to him in prayer. He knows what we need better than we do. If he doesn't answer like we desire doesn't mean he didn't answer. It may mean He says no, or in His time or His way. A spiritual song that I really love is "In His Time." It's a very short song but had lots of meaning. Hope that helps.

  2. MJ.. I am so sorry about your grandma.. And sorry for the trouble with your biological dad. You have a very good out look and am proud of you.
    The washer /dryer looks fantastic.[my hubby would never notice either.ha
    My favorite bible verse is , Psalms 46:1.God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. I love the "very present".. it means to me, that He is here right now". I have a chalk board sign on my porch and it says, God is our refuge..
    Look forward to hearing what quote you will use.. Maybe change it up weekly, etc.
    Hope your day gets better and better.. hugs

  3. Joshua 1:9
    Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.

  4. My condolences MJ. But so glad you have good memories. No one can take that away from you. I like all the above texts. Psalm 62 has lots of encouraging verses as well. I like the rotation idea as well...Hang in there!

  5. I am sorry about your grandma. Like you said, you will carry those memories of her forever.
    I have this verse on my kitchen table right now:
    Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable--if anything is excellent or praiseworthy--think about such things.
    Philippians 4:8

  6. Hey MJ. It's been awhile. Just checking in to see how you are doing. Been thinkin' about ya and praying for you all.

  7. I check several times a week too. I hope you'll be back soon, and that all is well.